The undergrad Warwick times are well over now. Oxfam is no stranger to the closure of this nice chapter in my life. I have received answers to my letter of complaint; the first one was basically taking me for a fool, the second one was along the lines of "eff off and die". Needless to say I am hugely disappointed; but then, what was I expecting? I'm not sure. If it was, as I believe, internal politics and individuals' power struggles that led to the closure, they probably wouldn't admit it. Anyway, the full text of their email is available here, and hopefully I will be able to stop ranting about this particular topic on this blog. Ranting about Oxfam is a different matter.
Anyway, I'm not sure whether the eff off email I got on monday triggered several of the decisions I have made this week; or if I was going to do it anyway - it definitely sped the process up. But I'm stopping a lot of things I had started that were associated with Warwick. The hugest one is the BIE - the students' international office I had created in my university back in summer 06. It was a nice experience, and I got good friends out of it; and I believe it was not only useful, but simply necessary to create such a structure. Well, structure is a strong term, but at least I've planted the germ of an idea there; and hopefully it will go on after my times. Out of all that's been done, I'm proud of the setting up of the buddy scheme, and the redaction of a guide (heavy pdf, work in progress at the time of writing), as well as an online wiki guide.
So why stop? I guess I'm tired of getting involved in stuff; without it paying off in the long term. I'm sure both my work at Oxfam and in the BIE were appreciated, and had lots of short-term advantages. But in the end, it was very demanding in terms of energy, and rather than adding a service to international students, we were doing what the official international people should have been doing. Ah, well, at least the BIE will be taken over, and the guide will live; so there will be some long-term effects there.
I'm not sure the same can be said of the rock-gospel choir. Which I'm stopping too by the way. At least temporarily. The reasons are similar, even though the issue is different - it was too energy-consuming, and the pay-off was not that huge. It was good while it lasted, i.e. when people were coming. But lately, attendance has dropped drastically, and so has my motivation. At a time when exams are drawing near, there is no way I was going to keep on preparing entire rehearsals/songteaching for three people, when the future was not certain, as no-one who is motivated enough to take over is not in a position to commit to it.
Again, I have no regrets. It was nice while it lasted, and has had an impact on some people; who may have discovered hidden abilities (I'm still a fan of the Aims & Values, available on the Lyon Rev website), and it was fun, and amazing.
So, so long to all that. The only thing I'm still involved in is the Warwick Student Cinema. Cos' it's fun and not too energy-demanding, though I'm sure the people involved at higher levels than I, would probably disagree on that point!